Monday 14 November 2011

The Truth is out..

Semalam akhirnya saya beritahu ayah saya, tentang Haris. Haris autistic. Daripada mana keberanian itu muncul, saya tidak tahu. Mungkin atas desakan kawan-kawan baik ataupun kerana diri sendiri tidak mampu memikul kenyataannya sendiri.
Selepas saya memberitahu ayah, saya beritahu adik dan abang saya.
Apa yang saya harapkan? Doa mereka dan timbangrasa mereka pun sudah lebih dari cukup. Yang pasti saya lega, mereka tahu apa yang kami hadapi. Bukanlah saya mahu mereka sama2 miserable dengan saya, tetapi biarlah mereka ingat, dan mungkin insaf, bahawa golongan 'anak-anak istimewa' sekarang termasuk cucu dan anak saudara mereka sendiri. Mereka sudah tidak boleh 'change the tv channel' lagi, sebab ia sekarang directly link pada mereka. Saya juga tidak mengharapkan selepas ini mereka tiba-tiba menjadi sangat aktif melibatkan diri dalam aktiviti kehidupan seharian Haris. All I ask is a bit empathy. For all it is, mereka hanya tolak ke tepi sahaja perkara tersebut dan meneruskan kehidupan mereka seperti biasa.
Biarlah mereka mengambil masa untuk menerima berita ini. Saya yang merupakan ibu Haris sendiri pun sukar menerimanya, inikanlah pula mereka. Saya akan memberikan article-article tentang autism supaya mereka mendapat gambaran sebenar.
InsyaAllah, semua akan baik.

1 comment:

  1. Allhamdulillah Chah...u have made a right decision to tell them...jangan risau bebanyak ok about their reactions in the future...at least, beban yg ko dok tanggung sorng2 tu...dh terlerai skeet...n u can focus more on Haris's needs...InsyaAllah...aku yakin...they will alwyas be there for you guys...itulah namanya FAMILY...apart from that...we are also there for you Chah...

    lots of love
    Durra

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God’s Special Child

I’m sending you a special child, to cherish My name,
For you to love with all your heart, and teach him just the same,
For he is not like others babies, nor will be,
But you can love him just the same, and take care of for Me,
He may not hear, see, run, or learn as others do,
But he’ll be yours and he will take his guidance all from you,
The road is hard, he’ll break your heart, and you’ll cry a million tears,
But I promise when he smile at you, the pain disappears,
I know you’ll cry “why him, why us”, but I need teachers true,
And that is why with the care and trust, I select you,
So please don’t turn back on him, although he may be slow,
If you’ll accept him as he cherish My name, then together you will grow,
He need to learn the skill of life, for that I’ve chosen you,
And with your love to guide him, I know you’ll see him through,
Don’t try to see the future, I promise that to none,
Just live each day for all its worth and enjoy My special one.